You Can Trust Yourself to Make Good Decisions

How I'm thinking about the future and God's will amid a big life transition.

As some of you know, after six years here, I’m leaving New York City very soon. The movers come next week, and I’ll spend a day furiously cleaning (gotta get that security deposit back) before packing up a rental car and driving 10 hours to Ohio to stay with family for a month.

Brooklyn Bridge Park, summer 2024

Moving is terrible; I’m convinced a lot of New Yorkers pay too much for their already-pricey apartments because moving one’s stuff makes one feel insane. And if I dwell on the fact that I don’t know where my bed will be December 1, I can easily spin out over the uncertainty of it all.

People don’t seem to do well with uncertainty. Especially anxious people — so I’ve heard. Grasping to see a future we don’t know, can’t know, and aren’t ultimately supposed to know, how easy and morbidly comforting for us to project out and imagine the worst:

I’ll move to Chicago and have no friends and end up in an apartment with no natural light and want to go jump off Navy Pier, and a tourist wil…